In Your Eyes

In your eyes I see me for what I am
For what you make me believe.
I am greater than the greatest,
Far prettier than the girl in the mirror lets me see.
A smile that can move mountains.
Strength that can pick me up and all that hath fallen around me.
A voice that can soothe a crying baby.
A whisper that can silence the gods.
In your eyes you show me that I can be whatever I want to be in this great wide world.
At the very ends of my finger tips
is the end of hungry kids and the promise of world peace
No more poverty on the streets with every pace and beat of my feet
In your eyes I am limitless possibility.

From the bottom to the top of my heart and the depths of my soul
Is a love for someone I never knew I could find again.
But your eyes found it.
You pulled the love I have in me and surfaced it.
And now I am yours.

In my eyes you are perfect.
In my heart you are stained.
In my soul you are etched.
On my mind you are a constant.
Within my everything, you are forever.

Missing Your Lips

hope floats upon tiny wings that keeps my heart fluttering
from winter through to spring
tripping over my shoestrings you break my fall with your lips
your taste still lingers

No Shock to this Heart of Mine

A whisper in the wind
a tear in the sky
a cry in the rain
rage against the thunder
rip the lightning bolts from the clouds
pain subdued by wonder

death
death
death
death

I blame myself to sleep
I cry myself awake
My body wrenches and it heaves violent bolts of pain through this chest plate
Like a record, i repeat myself
with different verse my words aren't heard
only written to be cast away to collect dust
And I will do this all over again
I must
And when I cant hold it in any longer
and nobody is around
and nobody is listening
I will rage war on the Gods
and the lightning and thunder will fear my wrath

life
life
life
life

half alive?
but the sparks in my eyes will tell you otherwise
they push me forward and brighten my path
I push on my own chest to pump oxygen through these lungs
Sometimes I forget to breathe
I forget to eat
I forget to sleep
And In my dreams the obscurity of life becomes clearer
Like the blue of the sky reflecting on the salty oceans
The green of the leaves bursting through buds on a tree and the blades of grass tickling my toes
like the scent of spring flowers luring my nose
and the sounds of my music making my day and saving my life..
I will make my way past the rising fury, this forever hurting, the loss of love, the distance of family, the deaths of best friends, this constant knot left unknown... and I will look towards... I will look towards.. something more

Mom...

The snap of my jeans as I fold my laundry reminds me of you. Now I discover that I have one channel without cable. Turns out it's CTV. Oprah is on. I hear it playing in the background, and without watching, this too, reminds me of you. Not only does smell remind us of our past and certain memories, but so does sound. I guess that's why some music has become tainted in our lives. As a child these things were comforting; I'm now 24, doing the same things as you and I am completely content in this moment.

<3

Black and White Eulogy

Black and white
This walking shell holds your ashes tight
Close to my stitched up heart
You and I, we wont ever part
Your blood pumps through this body
Your thoughts spark in my mind
Images fill these tears
For you and me
It has been four long years
I can still hear your voice
On the other end of the telephone cord
Miles between
But distance could never keep us
You wear your medals proud
Your voice booming loud
Louder than that contagious smile that you threw around
So freely
I try to remember new things every day
But these torn memories begin to fade
Your dying heart
Like this skinny love of ours
A piece of you in my every part
I’ll carry you with me always
Your jokes they echo in my head
You repeated them oh, so often
And still I can’t remember one..
How can two people so close
Become so divided and chained so far?
And through this world so black and white
Your colour will always shine through the brightest
And although every night I’m knocking at your door
It seems as though your in-between world may be
keeping you
But just in case you forgot
Tomorrow marks an important day
And it’s not the day of your death
I’m so proud of you dad…
For coming so far..
As tomorrow marks your 1,460th day
Of being clean and sober
And with only a few hours away
“Here’s a drink to your bones that this dog still
Dreams about”





♥ ♥ ♥ I'll hold this loss in my heart forever ♥ ♥ ♥

"we are all a little weird
and life is a little weird, and when we find someone whos weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love"
-Anonymous

Beautifully Imperfect

Being Happy doesn't mean that everything is PERFECT...
It means that YOU'VE decided to look beyond the imperfections..

I look beyond the imperfections

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