Abstract magical hidden message!

Today, I surrender dear,
When its sleepy time down south.
Speak easy,  the song of nature is a good start.
Cartoons and Forever plans is my fantasy Clean getaway.
I'll find mine when getaways Turned Holidays sing to yellow butterfly's. 

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Bleed my life into your eyes.
Breathe my sorrows into your ears.
Touch my pain upon your skin.
Those tear drops are visions of painful memories.
Those whispering sorrows, lying truths.
The goosebumps on your skin is the reality of my past skeletons.

(I) Close your eyes.
(I) Plug your ears.
(I) Shield your skin.

I'm still standing here.
I'll stand here til the day I die.
Then I'll haunt you every night..
Screaming every word you never want to hear.
"I love(d) you"

Freezing

Tear my limbs and break my bones.
Open my wounds and rip out my veins.
Pack my arteries with plaque
And fill my lungs with acid.
These ways of torture do not amount to the pain
of how I feel when you're gone.
And you are gone.
I wish my heart would stop pumping this blue liquid through my veins
Inject memories of us into this stream, call it life, and I shall believe.
Jaded in your eyes. The eyes of the world.
The cold nipping and biting at my tips.
The sun burning through my retinas.
I don't need these fingers if I can't touch you.
If its you I'm not seeing, then take these eyes too.
Your voice is gone so take my ears; there is nothing else I'd rather hear.
Freeze the rivers, dry the oceans,
crumble the mountains and burn the forests,
I don't need them anymore.
No water for drinking, no trees for breathing.
Take my life to the in between and I will be happy once again.
This Life's one way path is so material;
What do we want?
A home that is left broken?
Friends that betray you?
Love when it is always breaking my heart?
A family that will die before my very eyes?



Ice will cut you in the winter time
and drown you when it starts to melt.

Father-Daughter-Mother-Son

With every silent tear drop falling fallen on my cheek
lies a memory of you exploding into space.
Our lives intertwined from now until forever.
Paws and hands and toes and claws scratch at the past
and break our futures.
Feelings and hearts meaningless to the universes world.
Out there we will someday meet again.
Our freckles, symbols of our pacts.
Our lives not over, but only moved...
Moved between time and distance.
And when the stars and planets align
the gaps will be closed and the paths we've trodden down
will once again cross.

Dancing With the Stars

Close kisses, body brushes,
blues turn to bliss transforming crushes.
Dancing stars in your eyes
the sparkles can't disguise.
Sadness Subsides..
Intriguing lips catch my gaze,
and your spoken words captivate me.
Curves and movements meant for me
when you know that it is only you that I see.
Secret smiles sent my way with hidden meanings left unsaid...
It's your song dancing in my head.

I Don't Think You Know

I don't think that you even began to know.
Something so easy, something so smart.
Something so simple.
Something that you can't even begin to know.
My heart begins to ache.
But then all I want is you... next to me.
Just kiss me... moments away... I'm ready my love.

R.I.P. Karma (aka Karmichael) 05.11.06- 01.06.10

Christmas Eve 2009


there is this pain
in my heart
a void
without you
i wish i had more time
I wish i could have been better
you were in my arms only moments ago
and now you are with my dad
you will be happy there
but i will miss you forever
why do my loves always leave me
always the ones that get me
you were me in cat form

forever alone
forever sad
Forever love; Digame

words can't express the explosions and waves of feeling riveting through my body
i want to scream. I want to cry so loud and scream. come back to me. STOP LEAVING ME. my baby boy. such a little bastard. gawd I love you so much.
I just lost my 3 year old son.

so much I want to write. Whos going to hang out while I shower and follow my every step around my tiny apartment? Whos going to sleep at the end of my bed all curled up with his eyes covered? Who is going to meet me at the top of the stairs every time I walk through the door? Who is going to attack my feet and arms while I sleep? Whos going to manipulate me with his cry? Who is going to sit and stare at the door every time he wants outside... and peak through the window when he wants in? Whos going to put cat fur all over my dark clothes and in my food and in my mouth and in my eye and everywhere I thought I didn't want it? Whos going to roll around and stretch and be all cute for me when you want something? No more stare downs with the demon squirrel on out balcony. No more play dates with Jack, the cat from down the road. No more shying away from my touch cus You're too good to be pet by me. No more surprise cuddles and neck scratches. No more rolling over when I sing softly to you. No more abnormally loud purring. No more secret sharing. no more bird watching together. no more indy 500 around the apartment. this can go on and on and on. but my heart cant if I do. No more Karma. Is that my Karma?


"let me go womyn, flash in ma eye"


his favorite perching spot cus he always had to be with someone.


"why do you always do this to me?"
"Cus I love you soo much"


trying to cuddle.

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